I'm hoping this will be kind of like exercise. When upping the intensity of a routine there is that point where it's really difficult and you want to give up, but you have to push through that threshold and it starts to improve.
I've been consciously removing all room for destructive thoughts by dwelling on positive ideas and listening to positive music. But I've been getting twinges of anxiety and even embarrassment about it. Thoughts like,
why post it publicly? People are going to laugh at you. You're being self centered, everyone will think you're weird. Well, even if that is true (logically I tend to believe more people will ignore me than think disapprovingly about this thread) I still need to force myself through it because I can tell it will help - if I don't give up. I want it posted publicly because if gives me a feeling of accountability, and I'm hoping maybe some people will join me eventually because sometimes the best way to help yourself change is to support another person doing the same thing.
My three positive/thankful things for
Jan 11
I'm thankful for my husband. He loves me unconditionally and is supportive and understanding.
I'm alive and healthy. I can do anything. The
only thing holding me back from my dreams is ME. I will conquer me.
I'm thankful for all the things I take for granted. The little details in life are sometimes the most important.
Intention/Affirmation: I am me, living my life. I may not be doing every thing right. Sometimes I might not only get my foot caught in my mouth but start to swallow it too. I'm not the smartest or the funniest or the prettiest. But it's okay. Success is not an arbitrarily defined finish line that equals perfection. It is waking up every morning and saying,
Today I will do my best to improve on who I was yesterday.