fail fail fail and now just trying to get back up
I used to post a lot on 3FC before...I lost around 30 lbs back in spring and gained back 20...I feel horrible...I have kept on doing this to myself throughout my life ---- I know how to lose weight but don't know how to keep it off and keep going I always regain the same 20 POUNDS eeeek it makes me so frustrated because I can never stay under 200 lbs ever. Just getting back on the train to weight loss has been a huge struggle --- I feel ashamed to see people who are sick of my weight fluctuation by now I'm sure ---I used to eat healthy, take care of myself and appreciate myself and I'm ready to start again I'm just looking for positive support. I'm having trouble just getting through even 1 day on plan or even 1 workout...my goal now is to get through one day perfectly on plan and I'll post when I do Sunday night. I also plan to get at least one 1-3 workouts in this week. I am aiming small.
My self esteem is in the dumps --- but I will keep pushing forward. I've heard enough fat jokes from family and friends and I never show how it affects me and I realize I should just let it go but its really made me feel worse and worse and lose motivation but I realize if I don't push myself no one else will help me get out of the situation I'm in. So i'm giving this a go, dusting myself aoff nd I'm not looking back because a quote I was inspired by said...Pain is Temporary but Quitting is Forever ---- I won't quit, I'll hurt I'll be sad I'll feel bad...I'll struggle but quitting isn't worth it. I just wanted to share.
I know this totally was a random rant but I really had no place I could share it other than 3FC.
Losetogain: If you don't quit, you can't fail.
Rocky Balboa: You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done.