The best way I know how to support you right now is to tell you that it will not always be hard! Believe me, starting off at over 100 lbs more than you (and still well above where you are
), it was daunting to say the least to realize that no, I don't have 100+ pounds to lose anymore, now I have 200.
I was expecting it to be harder than it has so far, to be honest with you. I have lost quite a bit of weight off and on in the past, but it was always some hair-brained scheme that left me starving and miserable the entire time. It's actually amazing to me that I had the willpower to stick to any of that as long as I did a few times. This time, I have a very satisfying plan of calorie counting in place, I am not hungry anymore (I was for maybe a few weeks). I am enjoying very moderate exercise, and I've tried to give up that all-or-nothing mentality when it comes to working out/being active. I encourage you to find a plan that is really DOABLE, for the long haul.
Also, I wanted to stress that you don't have to make it to goal weight to reap the benefits of your dedication and hard work. I feel about 100% better now than I did at my starting weight, and that's with only losing about 20% so far. It's an exciting journey full of learning, experimenting, and self-discovery -- and it doesn't have to be deprivation and self-loathing. Not at all. I'm probably happier than I've ever been in my life right now -- certainly happier than when I was slowly killing myself with food.