Doh! I just had a major Homer Simpson moment.
This Friday is my birthday. I've been completely, 100% on plan for over a month and I really want to go out for a special meal for my birthday and not be so
concerned about calories, carbs, etc. Not that I want to go crazy and eat everything in sight but just to be able to eat a "normal" enjoyable meal if that makes any sense.
However, there is a big meal at the church where I work on Sunday and I know that I can't splurge a bit on Friday and then go to the meal on Sunday where I'll definitely be splurging because I have no control over what's made, no idea how it's made and have no way of determining the calorie content.
It's been seriously stressing me out - even more than dealing with Thanksgiving dinner (because I'll be cooking that and I'll know how things were made, etc. and what I can have and still be on plan).
So, after fussing and worrying myself almost sick over the whole thing (who gets that fussed over food anyway?) it suddenly occurred to me: I don't have
to go to the church thing. If I'm going to have something slightly off plan then I can choose what and when. I know that seems pretty obvious but at some point I've obviously become such a "pleaser" that it never even dawned on me that I could opt out of doing something that I would find entirely too stressful for many reasons.
So, I'm going to call this a small NSV!