Hi Shifter,
I just want you to know that your post helped me to stop a binge that I started this evening. I came here and signed on because I was feeling out of control and I needed something to take the focus off the binge. I realize this probably doesn't help how you are feeling, but please know that I am here to support you as so many others are.
I always felt alone when I would binge, thinking I was the only one who did this and that there was something seriously wrong with me. Knowing that others are on this journey with me has helped me so much.
My biggest obstacle lately has been my adult son moving back home for a bit while he saves for his own place. His eating habits are that of a 20 y/o guy, and I just can't eat like that anymore. He left chips and salsa out and they finally tempted me. I ate one serving and then another. Then I got chicken out of the frig and dipped it in the salsa, then pretzels sticks, then swiss cheese. To give myself a little credit here, I have not had a binge in almost 4 months.
Instead of patting myself on the back, I choose to concentrate on this one slip up. Human nature, I suppose. It could have been so much worse for you, and me. We stopped and now we have to get right back to doing the right thing for ourselves. I am here for you.