my last 24 hours have been so ridiculous they are reedonculous.
My Shaun (still don't know what to label him, love of my life, best friend, son's father . . . . . ) has been accepted to return to Haiti - until January 2011. I'm proud of himfor finishing what he started, and he started a lot over there in 2 months, but till January?
Ok breath . . I can handle that.
Then I get called a hypocrite from some random person becuase I AGREE with the smoking ban that passed here. You can't smoke in a vehicle that holds a child 16 or under. Granted I was having a smoke when I said this, but that doesnt make me a hyppocrate, I have never and would never smoke around my son, he doesnt see me do it, I dont smoke in the car or allow anyone to smoke in it regardless if he's in it or not - how am I a hypocrate?
Breath . . . people can be irritating.
Jack (son) decided to throw a tantrum last night, here come the terrible 2's and didn't go to bed until 10 and thats too late for him. Then came the phone call telling me about Haiti. Finally got to bed at 12, not good when I get up at 6 and the night before only got 4 hours of sleep.
I slept in this morning, not surprising after another 1 am phone call from Shaun (he's in Vancouver currently, Im in Winnipeg) to figure out what he should do.
I missed breakfast so I packed it to have at work, no biggie. But to add to the Tim Hortons, Robins Doughnuts, McDonalds and food court right by my work . . . there is now a Starbucks. I so wanted to get a nice fattening, tasty coffee this morning.
I walked right on by and why? Because I knew I could come here and see right in front of my eyes that I'm on track to keep loosing. I've been eating clean for the week, I'm not hungry or deprived, its tasty food and I have it in my lunch bag now.
So some where along the way this morning I realized that this place has become sanctuary and as long as I can resist temptation long enough to come check things out here, it too will pass.
Ok, my vent is done. Off to finish my apple and peanut butter