Backsliding and new beginnings.
It's been a while since I've logged in. I think I got a bit too comfortable with life and let myself go into bad habits. I was doing SO well, and then all of a sudden it all got to me.
I just, I really don't know where to start. I've got videos galore, have vegetables on autodelivery so I HAVE to eat them every week, try to take vitamins, try to have a breakfast replacement shake every morning (The Ultimate Meal). But with all the planning and all the allotment and calculation for how many calories are in this and how many minutes I'll need to exercise to lose this, it just gets to be so much.
I get so overwhelmed, then I skimp on the veg, the vitamins, the shake, the exercise. I mean, no one said it was going to be easy. But I have to ask myself, am I even going to like who I am when I'm 150 pounds lighter?
Yeah I might get more looks, I might be "healthier". But I can't say I hate who I am now. It makes me torn. I want to do this for the right reasons, but how I do I know the reasons I have are really right?
Does this make any sense? Ugh. If anyone has some support to help get my butt in gear, I would be much appreciative. Does anyone else ever feel like this sometimes?