I was going to say something similar to Kaplods.
Self sabotage? What does that mean really? I think it's a fancy term for not putting forth the effort that is needed to get the job done. In other words, I don't think it's a CONSCIOUS decision to undermine yourself, not for the wedding or anything else.
I've been sitting at 180 lbs for a month, and can't seem to budge!! It's agravating, but I hope to break through soon when my stress levels decrease after the wedding.
You can't seem to budge? Well *budging* takes work, effort, thought, planning, ACTION. Hoping to break through when your stress levels decrease? I don't know - won't there be something else to stress about??? You can't hope for it - you've got go WORK for it. Hoping is not going to do it. Nope. Work. Continuous
, non-stop work. And I really hate to use the word work, because once you ALLOW yourself to do this, it's not *really* work - it's automatic, second nature. Just what you do.
I think folks make it a lot harder than need be with all the starts and stops and starts and stops and stops and stops. Push through it. Continue.
As for a better time to start adhering to a healthy lifestyle? There is no better or more perfect time that now. Right now.