I ran my butt off on the treadmill the other day (this was about two weeks ago) and I was feelin' so good. I felt invigorated after and happy! And then... I got in the shower, looked down at my legs and noticed ~gasp!~ some saggy fat on my right thigh. EEEW! Here I am busting myself only to have nasty thighs. I felt very... defeated.
After losing nearly 40 lbs (my very heaviest was 250) and having a baby, my body looks like a deflated balloon... like a bomb went off inside my gutts. And I still have AT LEAST another 40 lbs to go... what will I look like then? I know that I would rather be tucking saggy skin into size 12's than trying to zip fat into a size 18, but still... the body image issue has really reared it's ugly head these last two weeks.
I guess I am just looking for others to tell me how they get past body issues like this. I want to love myself, saggy leg fat and all. The jogging and exercise has done wonders for me - it makes me feel strong and healthy. I love the capable feeling that comes with being able to jog two miles in a row or hoist myself out of the lake without using a ladder. But my saggy leg fat made me cry.
"I'd rather waltz than just walk through the forrest"
- Sprint Triathlon: 9/11/2011
- Half Marathon: 9/18/2011
- Weigh under 210: GOAL!!! As of 7/16/2010
- Next goal: Get BACK to under 210