I came across this site 2 years ago and it helped me a LOT! I was so inspired that I lost a total of 115 pounds!
I have been re-gaining and losing the last 12 since my honeymoon (May) where I declared a free-for-all on my eating
I have fallen off the wagon and health issues have made returning difficult but so has this depression!
I feel like I look the same pretty much (as when I was at my highest)- how is that possible? I look in the mirror or at pictures and cringe. I see other pics in the goal albums and they look like different people! I've gone from inspired to jealous.
I keep thinking about how I've RUINED my body. It will NEVER look them same. I have so much bunchy fat and I look like a partially filled sack! I'm so unbelievably disgusted with and disappointed in what I did (gaining all that weight origionally) and have gone from being a happy & confident person who lost weight simply to be healthy to this.
Crazy thing in that when I was THAT FAT (300+ pounds) I didn't see it! I was in deeeeeppppp denial. I got real with myself and got to work. I broke myself down and have yet to rebuild if that makes sense.
Sometimes I feel like what's the point?
I have a new goal of 175 but my ultimate goal is to wear a size 10 comfortably. Maybe that will change once I get there? But for now that's it.
I'm reaching out for support because I really need it!
What can I do to change my perspective and get positive & motivated? I hope to become a more active member (again) and find out