Right now I don't know what I weigh- the number in my ticker and on my profile are from about a month ago. I purposely don't keep a scale in my apt because I obsess about it. I threw out a $70 scale in the trash because I couldn't deal with having it around- I was constantly weighing myself sometimes more than once a day! So that's why I was doing blind weighins, but lately I haven't been weighing in at all. I am going to start doing weighins again and I am debating facing the scale- just facing the number because I know I will see it at my doctor. At my doctor, if I haven't lost weight by June 22, I have to get an ultrasound for my fatty liver. So, I guess I should start seeing the number on the scale. The thing is when I see the number on the scale, good or bad, I automatically want to overeat. I am getting better at not actually doing that though. Can anyone relate to being obsessed with the number on the scale? What helps you?
The other thing is about my staying motivated and dedicated. I was doing great before. My trainer said I was doing better than all of his clients! Then I start to self sabotage and not stay the course with motivation and dedication and I start cheating. When I really self sabotage is when I let myself down by not meeting a goal or not doing as well as I anticipated I would. Then I start eating out and not working out and just say - whatever! Once I do that though, it is really hard for me to get back on track. Can anyone relate to this kind of black and white thinking?