Ok.. so I started out my weightloss attempts after Christmas. Decided to try calorie counting and really like it. Did LA in the past, but it just wasn't something I wanted to do again.
I lost 15lbs. since Christmas and last month.
Fast forward to now... I have totally just destroyed my efforts. I didn't gain much back.. a few lbs. I think. BUT how could I go from doing so good and exercising, to doing so BAD??
I know what to do, how to do it.. just can't make myself do it.
Woke up this morning with all intentions to get back to basics. Had a good breakfast.. then at work at my lunch went and got some hot fries, little chocolate donuts and PB M&Ms.. why?? I DUNNO! I just tell myself "who cares??" Obviously I CARE!
I feel like a fat cow sitting here in my chair.. my pants that are too big that I had to pin on the sides aren't QUITE as baggy. Still have then pins in them, but its not what I want it to be like!
If I didn't have work today and have to be around students I would find a corner and cry.
When I get home today I think I am going to go and sweat my @$$ off on the treadclimber.
Just needed a moment to vent!!