On 1st January 2010 I started a new way of life; healthy eating and regular exercise. I didn't see the results I wanted so since early February I have been on-off-on-off the wagon and haven't really made any progress.
In mid-September I'm starting the job of my dreams and I really want to lose at least 25 pounds before then. I know that looking at the calendar it's a feasible and sensible target, but seeing as I set myself the target of "1 pound per week on average this year" and am way below that, I know that the reality is not so simple as plotting on a graph/calendar.
Whenever I have tried to lose weight before it hasn't been this much of a struggle - I have committed to my weight loss and seen significant improvements. Now it seems that I can only stay focussed for a week (at the most!) before sabotaging my progress.
I keep making promises to myself and not keeping them. And it's been going on for so many months now that I don't believe it's ever going to happen. I am so full of good intentions and fill my fridge with healthy food and plan my meals, but then I go ahead and ignore all of my planning and find a way to make my portions HUGE or my food more fatty.
I'm doing exercise regularly and my fitness levels have increased, but I totally ruin any calorie deficit with my eating.
I don't know what I'm asking for here really. I just really want to get to my goal weight this year and I'd be really grateful for anything that you think might help me to buck my ideas up.