i keep telling myself i need to lose weight. i even mean it when i say it, i know i do but today i took a good long look in the mirror and was shocked at being this big. It's not who i am. She's not the woman i know, that person is under there somewhere. i realized today there is no easy way to lose weight, i'm going to have to work hard. i'm going to have to sweat. i'm going to have to look at myself in that mirror during aerobics. i am going to have to face the hard work ahead of me. It's not going to be pretty, i'm going to have to sweat and be out of breath. There may be some tears at what i have done to myself. i will have to face the embarrassment i feel when people see me. i must realize that food is nothing more then nourishment so that i can live. It's not meant for me to stuff my face full of.
i posted a few weeks ago that the pieces are coming together. Today, the big, fat ugly one fell into place.