After a lifetime of fighting overeating binging and poor habits I did finally lose the weight and have kept it off since august 08.
I put on 45 pounds with my 4th baby, and kept 40 of those pounds for 2 years. Every day I started the same way you describe. It was many months of start for 1 hour then regress to the muffins and cookies and beating myself up. Finally I stopped trying, figured maybe obeisity was my future and I should get used to it. Then, there was a clarity moment for me I and decided that one day I would be ready.
And then that day came and I was ready. I was ready for the commitment that comes with a healthy lifestyle. I started by counting calories and then adding exercise. Then I noticed what types of calories worked best for me. My body could eat more calories if they were the proteins (even high fat), fruits and veggies vs. the grains, (even whole grains).
I'd recommend trying any of the free calorie counting websites like the daily plate or fitday and figure out how many calories you are eating now. Try the bite it, write it method for a day or so. That is a real eye opener!!
Welcome to 3fc and visit often. This place is spectacular
I do know I would not be where I am now without the chicks and roosters here!