Hi jagmom,
I rarely go into other threads to read but I saw this one today and thought the title was interesting . I wondered what this post was really about. I know about "not wanting" to get on a ride, or sit somewhere. Wonder how many people actually stare at me while I ate my plate of " Tour of Italy" which was a plate of lasagna,fettucini alfredo and spaghetti & meatballs.
Eating late at night alone, never daring to look myself in the mirror. Buying bigger and bigger clothes and living in denial for a few years. My kids are small and I hated being one of the heaviest moms at school. Some of the kids have poked fun at them cause their mom is FAT. I wondered many times why did I choose to keep doing this to myself? I had a choice of not stuffing my face or stuffing my face. How could I hate so much what I was doing to myself and yet sit there and keep eating? There is no easy way to get control over this. The honest truth is I just woke up one day and said " NO MORE" sounds so cliche , I know. It's so easy not to do anything about it. You cant wish you had more will power, or stay deppressed cause you cant do this. Ask yourself " Has there ever been an obstacle in my life which I refused to be beaten?" If there has ever been a time when someone has refused something to your child , know that you will move mountains for your family if you had to! It's no different, you deserve this more than anyone. I tried every monday to diet, to exercise. But within 2 days , Iwas eating pizza or chinese food. Noone forced the food in my mouth. I was unhappy. I dont know how but I started walking every morning for about 20 min a day, then the following week 35 min, 45 min. I didnt go on an extreme diet, I just switched a lot of ingredients for lowfat or fatfree . I started eating fruits anddrank more water. The pounds didnt just melt off , I was losing about 1-2 lbs a week. I added more minutes to my walk and finally after 3 months of walking I was walking 90 min a day. Sounds totally insane and impossible! I stopped taking naps, I woke up early and stayed awake during the day. Something I was never able to do. I dont know how heavy you are but I am a very short girl at 5'3" and was at 194 lbs and wearing size 18 stretch. So I was probably bigger.
Today I am at 137 ,almost at my goal weight of 130 lbs.
I do have my favorite foods at least 1-2 times a week like , ribs, chicken wings, Mcdonalds. But in moderation. I wont eat 12 ribs anymore! But I will have 2-3 ribs,baked potato,salad and 1/2 cup coleslaw with light mayo. I didnt pay for any special program I just read a lot on the internet. Walking has been the best thing for me .
I wanted proof of my weightloss so I took a before picture. When I saw it I was in denial again, I thought I must have stretched the picture? I had a lump in my throat because here was reality.
Here are my pics. There is NO diet pill,no magical program,no special will power that you need to do this. You HAVE to want this, you HAVE to do this .
BEFORE : Feb 2002
http://a6.cpimg.com/image/56/4D/1076...-00DA01CE-.jpg
Current Picture: Aug 2002
http://a4.cpimg.com/image/38/BF/1222...-01290273-.jpg
I dont wish you luck cause that's for the lottery , but I pray for your success.
Take care and dont let this beat you.
Gen
194/137/130
"If you want your dreams to come true,wake up"