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Originally Posted by Windchime
I don't ever actually ask anyone because I wouldn't like to be asked my weight or size, but I do the mental comparison. Not because I want to feel superior or inferior, but because I am having trouble figuring out how I *look* right now. Today I saw some co-workers that I haven't seen for at least a year, and they gushed and called me "skinny". I don't feel skinny; I still have at least 15 pounds to lose to be at the top end of "healthy" on the BMI scale. But I looked thinner to them. I know that my jeans are getting smaller, but really--it feels like I am staying the same and the size number on the jeans is changing (but the actual jeans are the same size).
That sounds whacky, I know. I can tell I am just doing the mental comparison because my image of myself is all messed up right now. Hopefully it'll settle down soon.
It's like I could have written this! It's not whacky at all! I totally get it.
I think that is why all (or...most) of us do this... Because our self-perception is all screwy. I only occasionally see how I really look. I'm having a good day today in that I *feel* skinny. But, usually I feel every lump and bump that remains on my body. Usually I feel every jiggle. Bleh!
Anyway, yeah, I like to figure out what size/weight/height women are so that I can better guage myself. It helps me see....me!