I just started working out/dieting about a week and a 1/2 ago. We went out of state for DH's birthday and I ended up eating healthy, and even working out at the gym down there. Started to notice my depression was starting to kick in (over what I don't know!) and we ended up going out to eat. Instead of getting a wrap, I got chicken croquettes, mashed potatoes, a sweet potato, and stuff. A salad, and Cream of Turkey soup. And a soda. Can you believe it. I just wanted to sit there in the restaurant and cry. That's a ton of food. I did not eat it all, but still. Ugh. I am so upset with myself today. I could barley get out of bed. I am just starting to feel like I do not care about anything anymore...(depression). I am trying my best today. I did not eat breakfast which I should have, I had lunch. 6' hoagie with turkey, mustard, lettuce and pickles, and I will have a FF yogurt later. For dinner, who knows. We have like no food in the house right now, so I might have to make something that is not as healthy as I would like it to be. This is the first time I have not felt like going to the gym although I will MAKE myself go later.
I'm just a mess girls. I just wanna cry. Either eat everything or give up eating completely.
This weekend we are going to West Virginia to visit DH's family and celebrate a few birthdays. I am scared I am gonna get off track again. I feel like I can do this when I am at home, but when we leave to go somewhere I fall off the wagon.
I already have depression as it is but when this happens I feel like it makes it worse.
Ugh...anyway. Thanks for letting me vent.