Hi there, I am desperatly seeking advice on weight loss/change of lifestyle.
Last time I posted here was 2 years ago when I tried to lose weight before I moved for the summer. I didn't lose the weight before the summer. I did lose it over the course of the summer. I was healthy, happy and confident.
But then I moved to London and became quite unhappy and food was there to comfort me. I ate loads for 6 months and because i didnt like the water over there i was only drinking diet cokes. When I returned home I gained all my weight back and didnt want to go out just sat in the house all summer and ate.
In September 2008 I moved back to London in the hope of losing the weight, 9 months later I'm even bigger than before. This city is amazing and has so much potential but I'm too embarassed to do anything. I avoid looking in the mirror, I don't go clubbing anymore because even though I really want to I know I would look horrific and be even more embarassed.
I try to exercise, I would say I play football on the court once a week ( soccer ) . I try to eat healthy but I skip breakfast because I'm always running late. Then when I'm at work before 10 I'll have a small bag of crisps and a bottle of water or diet coke, then for lunch i'll have some chicken and fries with mayonaise and a bit of salad, then after lunch i'll have another small bag of crips and a twix. Then on the bus home I'll buy another snack and then later have dinner and a snack after dinner. I gave up smoking in November and it has definetly made me eat more to fill the craving. Every day I wake up trying to better but I can't control it, it just takes over.
Now I'm 2 months away from starting university( I'm 21) doing a course I've worked hard for to get in to. I'm looking forward to all the parties and everything but I'm scared I won't have changed by then and will hide in my room with a bag of crisps.
I really want to lose weight, so extremely bad but its like a drug I need to fill these cravings I can't stop and I'm extremely embarassed of myself not to mention a joke to some of my friends.
Does anyone have any advice on how i can turn this around and stop my addiction?