I've been seeing an average half-pound weight loss for several weeks now... and I tried decreasing my caloric intake for all of last week, and it didn't do anything to give me a greater weight loss.
Then I was finishing up a dessert with almond butter (I'd already calculated how much I had for today in advance as I decided to go back to my original 1,500 caloric intake) earlier tonight and I looked at the bottom of the jar and decided with my tablespoon ready, "why don't I just eat the rest of it (an additional 3-4 tablespoons of almond butter) and jack up your caloric intake just for tonight, higher than usual?"
I actually looked up my caloric intake for someone that's current 173 lbs from the Mayo Clinic Report & The American Journal of Clinical Nutrition, and apparently since I've worked out really hard yesterday and today, I should have eaten between 1,750 to 2,000 calories depending on my level of exercise.
with the extra three-four tablespoons, I had between 1,855 to 1,945 calories. Now, a part of me thought, "hey, this is fuel for your body and one day of eating more calories (NOT junk food or bad food at all but healthy foods) after two days of exercising HARD with an hour of cardio both days (and one hour 10 minutes of weight lifting on one day)-- that it may actually be a good thing for my body & metabolism to eat MORE.
Now, some of you guys may roll your eyes and say "good grief tea, CHILL out!"
A lot of my anxiety about food stems from the fact that I've been a lifelong compulsive overeater... I consider myself in "recovery" and still have the mentality for overeating, even though I'm on an eating lifestyle that has helped me lose this amount of weight to date.
I'm still trying to figure out how many calories I should be eating in order to drop an average 1-2 lbs a week. I'm also very aware that it can just be my body is just slowing down for the moment as I near my target weight goal and/or a small part of the weight loss slowing down is due to gaining muscle mass.
I also have been considering upping my caloric intake from 1,500 to 1,600 after next week's monday's weigh in to see if that helps at all.
I've never been as thin as I am right now (173 lbs) and at times, I get anxious over being this thin because of the uncertainty of not having a frame of reference for being this thin as a result of being overweight all my life.
Oddly enough, the more weight lifting I do, the more I realize I need food as fuel here to keep going.
On the flip side, I also struggle with the idea of "if I eat higher amounts of calories, even if its a controlled, calculated intake--- I'll start gaining weight again and get fat and I'll blow it."
It's a Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde thing
I work on myself and this mentality a lot and I'm better now than I was in the past about my level of "freaking out."
I just get nervous sometimes and feel more centered if I talk about it somewhere, like here