I had been thinking alot about my behavior lately, about my habits over the past 6 months that I've not been losing and have slowly been regaining. And I kept thinking sloth & gluttony... which I didn't even know what those really meant I just knew gluttony definitely applied and I was sure whatever sloth meant it was me too!
I was not raised Catholic and am not really religious so I never new much about these except in the horror movie 7even! But it's been so long since I saw that I don't remember. WELL, so I decided to google it and decided yes I am guilty of Sloth, Gluttony, Wrath & even Pride. And I am looking at this all in relation to my lifestyle/behavior and how it affects my weight loss/gain.
I know what I need to work on is a personal trait now. Not just if I have the willpower today or not. I need to demonstrate that I can have temperance, diligence, patience and humility! What i need is a change in my way of thinking and when I think of all these things in relation to food & exercise it changes the thoughts in my brain. It's not about all these bad things about myself that I should be focusing on. It is all the good things that I can start doing.
okay so here is what I got from wiki:
is the practice of moderation.
Classically, temperance was defined as governing natural appetites for the pleasure of senses according to the bounds of reason. No virtue could be sustained in the face of inability to control oneself, if the virtue was opposed to some desire; this is why it is classified as a cardinal virtue, where "cardinal" signifies "pivotal."
The virtues of abstinence, chastity, and modesty are considered sub-classes of the virtue of temperance, as it governs the practice of eating and drinking, practice of sexual intercourse, and the restraint of vanity.
holy moly this is the one I need to work on the most!
is the state of endurance under difficult circumstances, which can mean persevering in the face of delay or provocation without becoming annoyed or upset; or exhibiting forbearance when under strain, especially when faced with longer-term difficulties. It is also used to refer to the character trait of being steadfast.
well this one too, I give up way to easily and I endure nothing I run away and hide from all my problems or just refuse to deal with them
is a zealous and careful nature in one's actions and work. Decisive work ethic. Budgeting one's time; monitoring one's own activities to guard against laziness. Putting forth full concentration in one's work.
this is what I need, this would be good I have always thought what I lack is self-discipline... another abstract idea I have a hard time grasping but putting it in to perspective as diligence I feel I can become a diligent person
Humility well I didn't find a good line or two on wiki about this, but basically it said it "addresses the intrinsic self worth..." and don't have too much pride in yourself and don't think yourself so important that you can proclaim you are completely worthless! So no pity party for me!
So minus the religious subtext here, I have seen the light! I feel like all this depression & hopelessness I've been feeling will just float away when I start doing the things that will make me happy and stop the negative self talk, the laziness, the feeling of being out of control because I'm doing nothing to put myself in control.
So has anyone else thought about weight loss and this lifestyle change as all part of the grand scheme of life? Has anyone had success in this battle and realized it by on working on their own self worth or other character traits/lack thereof?
I hope to start each day a new person and to start seeing all these choices I could be making on a daily basis as contributing to a whole new me. Not just who I am now in a skinnier body, but truly a happier, healthier person both in body & mind!
PS. I think this all so exciting to me also because of the anticipation of the new Angels & Demons movie!!! I can't wait to see it, although I had wanted to read the book before it came out. ...lol, I'm sure my procrastination can be resolved while working on these character traits as well!! :P Maybe I can get to the bookstore tomorrow and get the book read and make it to the second weekend showing... I had wanted to see it opening weekend but patience is a virtue! hahaha!