See, this is one reason why I love this board so much - so many shared, experiences, so much to relate to, so many people who understand what you're going through because they are going through the exact same thing.
All of this gushing just to preface: me too, me too, me too.
In January 2008, I weighed 190lbs.
In May 2008, I weighed 165 lbs.
August 2008, I weighed 155lbs.
In April 2009, I weighed between 160 and 165 lbs.
On the one hand, I love my results, on the other, I'm sometimes asking myself why wasn't able to follow through, why I am going up and down between 155 and 165 like on a mini rollercoaster.
Lately, I've gotten so frustrated at the 162 on my scale that I overrestricted. After all this time, I really should have known better - vicious binging attacks ensued. One week it was so bad that I got terrified (and dead certain) that I would gain my way back up to 190 or higher within a month or two.
That kind of opened my eyes that I HAVE to focus on my achievements and not dwell on what could have been. Last week I've decided to ease up on my calories - I let myself eat up to my goal
maintenance level if I want to. So far I haven't maxed that out yet, but even if I did, I would eventually get to my goal - eventually. It felt like such a weight lifted off my shoulders (ha!), and I have so much more energy to work out.