The only thing I can tell you is that its tough, but you have to fight for what you want. Its hard being around skinny people, I don't have any family, but I do have friends that are very thin. They want me to succeed in all of my dreams. Believe me, there are many people who know how you feel and have been through what you are going thru right now, but at some point we all get sick and tired and we fight. No one said this journey was easy and if it was then we would all be thin. Its hard and its work, but what's the alternative? You have to decide for yourself that fat won't win, that you can see further than where you THINK you are right now, and that you are worth fighting for.
The past is over, now let's get it!