So, probably for the first time in my weight loss journey, I lay on my bed last night and thought - what if it just doesn't happen?
I have been struggling with my weight since gaining a total of 65 lb since starting on antidepressants (over a 10-year period). I have been OFF antidepressants for one year and four months now.
I am currently 167 lb (the last time I checked two weeks ago) and my goal is 135 lb (the weight I maintained with no problem before going on antidepressants).
I have been working so hard to lose the weight, and every time I look in the mirror I am so depressed and disappointed. But I have always had hope that ONE DAY, ONE MAGICAL DAY, I will reach my goal weight.
Last night was the first time I ever thought "maybe it just won't happen". Maybe my body is so screwed up from all the years of antidepressants that it has changed my metabolism permanently and I will be this weight forever???????
~Choirgirl~