Well, nothing like a rant to herald my return to 3FC after a prolonged absence.
What I have done since I left....I cant remember when I quit posting regularly, probably sometime in Jan/Feb. I have an inability to have more than one forum at a time and I was really focusing on my running goals and spending my internet energy on a running forum
So in 2008 I achieved a lot of running goals. I got a PR (Personal Record) in 5K, 10K, Half Marathon and Marathon and most importantly my Marathon PR was enough to qualify for Boston.
Lifetime goal. (of course, now I need to set a new goal). Along the way I racked up over 2000 miles which far exceeded my goal.
BUT the downside is over the last 17 months I have regained approximately 14 lbs of the ~ 60 I had lost. Now if I so much as gripe about that my friends are quick to assure me that I look great (yes, I do, but my pants are all uncomfortable and half dont fit at all and I'll be DAMNED if I am buying anything bigger) and that with all the exercise I do it MUST be muscle. If I had gained 14 lbs of muscle I am pretty sure I would know.
And of course there is the self destructive bingy behaviour I have been indulging in pretty much non stop for 17 months. Lose 1 lb, gain 2, lose 1, gain 3. Qualify for Boston, gain 5 (hello fear of success).
I need to be back in the land of people who wont make excuses for me. I know what is real. And reality is when you are sampling the christmas cookies WHILE cooking breakfast, something is a bit broken - regardless of what the scale says. I have always been willing to accept the weight that a healthy lifestyle will maintain. If that was this weight that would be fine (although it would make my new lifetime running goal a major challenge) But when I know in my heart of hearts that an average of 3-4 days a week I am eating in a self-destructive manner, I know that this isnt it.
So I am back. With what worked before which is very short term mini goals with DATES on them. That is what works for me.