This is just one of those Turkey week vacations that just doesn't cut it out, no matter how you try.
I've had relatives scream in each others faces and/or worry about finances out loud. I've got my own college loan payments to make tomorrow and I know once I've pay them off, I'll be able to breath a bit easier and enjoy going xmas shopping presents
It's just... on top of all that, I've been trying a new bc pill to help delay my monthly period due to iron deficient anemia (it's supposed to be every three months on this pill), but earlier tonight I discovered some spotting and I"m afraid it'll turn into my monthly again in which case I'll have to call my obgyn AGAIN for a different pill if this one doesn't work. (It'd be the third time the bc pill didn't work since I first started on bc pills this past spring.)
I guess, I was hoping the bleeding/spotting wouldn't occur today since I'm supposed to weigh myself on monday like I usually do and now I feel like I can't if the bleeding/spotting continues
I just had a miserable week last monday's weigh in due to constipation from iron pills (seems to be resolving itself now that I've included a slightly higher dose of vitamin c to go with daily iron pill consumption) and I really want to see if I had lost any weight this week.
(I've been great on calorie counting and walking during thanksgiving, though I confess since I had most of my work week off due to the turkey holiday, I have not been as active as I am on my feet 8 hrs a day at work as I usually am).
It's like during the day, I feel all my newly developing muscles in my back and legs, and then when I change into pjs and veg for the evening, I just feel allllllll the fat wiggling or plastered all over my stomach and elsewhere, and I'm like "can I really lose any of this fat? can I really ever go under a size 10 in my lifetime after being obese for so many years?" Once in awhile, I get afraid I won't get there.
It'd just be a nice pick-me-up in all of this stress.
Just been feeling a bit blue tonight
though I have not had any desire to overeat. I thought I'd come blab it all out on three-fat-chicks instead, ya know?