Im not too sure where to put my thoughts or where exactly in th forum.... so forgive me if it is in the wrong place, and let me know for future
I have been lurking here and there , I have posted in some places but I am trying to find my place here. and I can truly say I am not even sure yet..... I have decided to buy the Beck diet book and research that some more... but in the meantime Im not on any diet plan so to speak, but am trying to portion food and learn more on what the minimal fat and calories intake should be...... any help would be great..... well I am doing my walks but have missed 2 days and tried to make them up with swimming .....diet ideas? or plans?....
today at 9:15am I pulled myself out in my daughters 2-3 sizes too small swim shorts and my friends 1 size too big swim top... I haven't nor wanted to even attempt to try on a bathing suit this year..... and as horrible as I felt about the thought of anyone glancing at me with my swimming suit... makes me feel so vulnerable and does nothing for my self esteem...and confidence.........BUT
I plunged on and made my way to the side of the pool...walked over to the pool..... still wondering if people were peeping at me through their windows ... ( i live in an apt complex and the pool is surrounded by apts.. with full view of the pool (very Close) ......... MIND you there was absolutely NO ONE in the pool but ME... it was difficult even then. but I dipped in and I began my freestyle laps... the pool is 50 meters.... and I successfully completed 25 laps.. with the exception of breaks in between due to my asthma I gave myself 20-30 second breaks before each 3 lap set. which consisted of freestyle, and breast stroke..... I felt good .....when it was all said and done...
I know my next trip to the pool will be just as difficult maybe more so.
I also hope to find a buddy or group that I can relate to and join.
im so new so as u know I can't have a ticker.and I am not sure of what to follow regarding fat and calories and other stuff.....I am on this for now...again any suggestions would be appreciated.
my weight & lil about me are as follows:
34, married with 4 children, all c Sections...ages 12,10, 3 and 2
Goal/150 (happier to get lower)
goal of 30% fats daily
goal of 1200 - 1600 calories daily.
hope to know you all more. thanks