Aghh, I seriously need to rant:
Number 1:
I haven't been able to lose any more weight, and it is really getting hard. I know that I still have a lot more to lose, and I have a lot of body fat- and I mean it. There's a lot. It's really odd though, because there are girls that weigh as much as me, but they look skinny. I know it's because they have much more muscle mass. It's so frustrating!!
I've been cutting back on my food intake, and have increased cardio, but there is still no difference on the scale. I don't even notice a difference in my clothes. I actually feel like I'm getting bigger.
I was so frustrated that I completely over-ate yesterday and today.
Number 2:
Whenever I do good during the day, I get the WORST urges to eat a ton of food; most of which is all junk food.
Whenever I don't eat the food, I get really irritable. But then whenever I do give into my temptations with food, I feel so guilty/bloated/terrible. Then I keep telling myself that I will do better the next day, but I of course screw up. It's like a never ending cycle, and it's driving me mad.
Number 3:
What is up with skinny girls that eat more than I do in a day?!?
There's a girl who sits in front of me in my summer class everyday, and you would not believe how much junk she consumes within the 3 hours of the class. I watched today, and she ate: a bag of flaming hot cheetos, a bag of cheese-its, 2 bags of sweetarts, a pack of fruit snacks, a cliff bar, and 2 grandmas-brand cookies. (we get 3 breaks, and she gets it all at the vending machines, AND brings her own things in.) Everyone jokes about how much she eats, and so does she.
It literally tears me apart, because I've never had that much junk food in a very long time. And she's so flipping skinny!!!
Ugh. Sorry for my psychotic rantings. ......
Anyway, I feel like I have no motivation anymore, and I'm so tired of everything. I hate how much fat I have, and I want to get rid of it so desperately, but I just can't seem to. It's not just one problem area either; It's EVERYWHERE!
help!!!