Thank you all for the wonderful suggestions and comments. It is true that I do feel more confident, which in turn, as several of you stated, sends out good vibes, which attracts people. It's just so hard for me to deal with sudden attention, and probably one of the reasons weigh has been an issue with me for 40 years. I can not stand ogling, drooling men, (wether they are HOT or NOT). I have never understood how sexy curvaceous women can wear string bikini's and skin tight clothes. If I have to scare off dirty old men at 265 pounds with rude comments and dirty looks, they must have to carry a cattle prod to beat the jerks off.
I don't want to sabotage myself. Maybe I need therapy. Thanks again everyone. You are the greatest.