Why Why why?!! I start off so good, I eat well and I love to work out. So why is it that I then choose to sabatoge myself by sitting on the couch, eating the biggest pizza and then carrying on like that for a whole week? Its like I'm saying to myself I can't do it and that I don't have enough power to do so. I want it so bad, I am so tired of being fat and never having a boyfriend and being invisable to the world. I try to do activities and meet people but I know what they're thinking. That I have no self control.l see the way some people look at me, or worse, they don't look at me at all! It's like they see right through me. I can't do this anymore. I can't keep feeling sorry for myself. But yet I do.. every day.. for the last 15 years of my life I have lived with this. It's almost like its all I know. I need the motivation. I need the patience. I need someone to tell me that I am already a good person and that losing weight will just enhance who I am already.
Sorry. had to get that off my chest