So far today i've eaten:
two eggs
two slices of whole grain toast with butter
one plate of pasta with a side salad
one plate of rice and beans
half a bag of chips
one WHOLE tub of vanilla soy ice cream
one WHOLE jar of creamy peanut butter
and it's only 3:20pm. I'm so mad at myself i could spit. I'm sabatoging myself left and right. I know it, i see it, i say to myself, "You're not hungry anymore, stop eating" and yet i DONT. i KEEP EATING. and then i feel like crap. I just walked to the store in the Swedish crappy winter for ice cream and peanut butter. Sat down on the couch, and at the whole thing. I dont feel satisfied, I dont feel like my craving is filled, I just feel like a gross blob. This has been going on for a week. I'm terrophied to weigh in tomarow, I know it's going to be ugly. Ug, why do I do this to myself?
I need someone to go drill sargent on my ***. lol. I NEED TO GET BACK ON TRACK!