Hi and WELCOME. I'm very glad you've found this place. It is exceptional for advice, encourgament and support.
I'm so very sorry to hear of your loss. How difficult that must be. I'm glad to hearing that you are seeing someone. I hope everything works out!
As far as loving your body, well you don't have to necessarily love everything about your body, we are all just works in progress afterall. We don't need to be perfect (luckily). I'm sure you can find something positive to love, your arms, hands, your eyes and if not your body - well then yourself.
Weight loss is doable. With a plan in mind and some determination you CAN do it. Having said that, what exactly is your plan? Let us know. Maybe we can help you out a bit. Good luck to you.