Here's an irony.
I deliberately have kept off the scales for about 2 weeks now. I have switched to a healthier diet in general - not perfect but certainly better - with the main improvement being that I've gone from being in a place where I was bingeing most days and had put on about 10lbs in a few weeks (was surprised, but I did the math, and guess what...you CANNOT overeat by 1,000cals a day and stay the same! Well, blow me down!...Im lucky I didnt get fatter than I did, to be honest.)..
..to a place where I've only had, what, 2 binges in a fortnight, and they've been under 2,000 cals and featuring healthier foods.
But I really, really, want to know what I weigh. I'm TERRIFIED its gone up since I stopped looking - illogical, because I've been eating better and so forth - but the not knowing is bugging me, but whatever I am its never right, and whatever I weigh I cant do any better than what I'm now doing, so if I get on there and I've gained, I feel like I have no room for more restriction right now, so...
:-( I'm so sad of this constant...idiocy. If im not weighing I tend to eat better and binge less, but the not knowing kills me, daily. On other hand, if I *know* I do all kindsa funky things like binge if I'm depressed over gaining, or having *treat binges* if Ive lost....
help