I just need to vent for a minute...!!
This week is going to be probably one of the most stressful weeks i've had to go through in a long time..no major or serious issues, just so much going on!
First of all, it's my TOM and I have had the salty munchie cravings baaaad this week, which while I have mostly stayed on plan, my sodium intake has been through the roof, causing me to bloat up 5lbs and I just feel *gross* today.
I'm working 32 hours in the next 3 days, it's my last three days at my current job and it's super important we hit budget because otherwise the deficit will be taken from my vacation pay that's owed me. (I work in a sales/commissioned environment) I need that vacation pay because I'm moving from a weekly to a bi-weekly pay plan with my new job and won't get paid again until Dec 14th. No big deal, but I wanted to get a head up on Christmas...
I'm taking a huge paycut with my new job, and i'm starting to get a little concerned how far I really CAN stretch a dollar..but I did it for my sanity, not to mention my gas budget (changing from a 100+ mile daily commute to 20)
but it's a completely different industry and totally different job and i'm starting to get nervous about it when I shouldn't be.. it's actually a really really good thing for me..
and then Thanksgiving.. the DBF and I are going to his family get-together this year and it's all going to be people I don't know and I don't do well in situations like that and I'm nervous already... I don't want to seem rude but there are many thanskgiving foods that I don't like, and the ones I do like are the not-so-great for you ones and i don't plan on going off plan just for one day when it's the rest of the weekend i'm worried about....
...and then Friday is my 10 year class reunion and I don't even WANT to go but one of my best friends organized the whole thing and I already paid for the ticket and I have to go, but it's a formal/semi formal event and I have nothing to wear and no budget to really go out and buy something new that i'm only going to wear once. I found a dress in the back of my closet but it's too big (and a size L! ok, so that was ONE good thing, lol!) but i'm just going to deal with that.. it's definitely a size too big, but i think I can get away with it...
..and saturday I made plans months ago to meet friends at the casino and they made dinner plans at one of the nicer restaurants.. my buddy let me know that it's all going to be on him, but I checked out the menu and I know how these places are, there is probably a stick of butter in every dish that even sounded tempting, and I'm going to have to eat something.. but I don't want to seem like a pain in the rear being picky about the food when I know it's such a nice place and they do have a very varied menu.. just not very varied for dieters or healthy eaters!
OK, so in a nutshell for anyone who is bored by all the words I have down already... It's my TOM, I'm bloated, I have two events with scary food and stress issues happening the two days directly after thanksgving, and I'm scared that the new jeans I just bought for the new job I start next monday in a low-stress sane environment aren't going to fit by the time monday rolls around! I need some kind words of support that I can make it through this.. it's only the start of the holidays!