Hi Butterfly Dawn!
I'm sorry that you have had a rough time of it these last six years, but I'm glad to hear that you found this site and are ready to begin your journey that will take you to where you'd like to be!
We are all on our own journey here! Mine has taken seven years because I had several stops and starts along the way. WEight loss is demanding and challenging, but it IS doable. I find that it takes being a bit selfish for a change and thinking of myself as a valuable person -just like all the people in my life that I focus in on day after day. It seems strange to realize that I forgot myself in the equation for so many years! It feels good to focus on MY needs so that I can get myself to where I want to be.
You can do this! Read all the many posts of people who already have accomplished SO MUCH! It's amazing!