I am so tired of my mom. I'm sitting here looking for diet and weigt lifting information at 6 in the morning, and she comes in here asking me if I want to go to school. She asks me every morning. She asks me hoping I don't want to go to school.
Why? Because she doesn't want to drive me. It's 5 miles away.
She says I'm inconsiderate because I don't want to ride the bus. Riding the bus takes about an hour longer. And I don't want to because it takes more time and because the kids on it are ignorant and because I feel uncomfortable doing so.
How hard is it to drive me 5 miles?
That is why I want to leave here. Not because of that. But because everyday is a compiliation of small petty things like that. She complains and verbally abuses me because she doesn't want to do anything for anyone. And my dad works his butt off everyday of his life to support our family and she won't keep a job for any length of time. She sits home and watches soap operas, and complains when my dad asks her to get a job for little while. I'm looking for a job right now.
And I'm so tired of this. I'm trying to do what I have to do. I'm trying to eat right and exercise and get info on weight lifting. I'm trying to better my life. I'm trying to do all these things while I wait for the day when I can leave this house because of her.
And she complains because she has to take me to school for a 5 minute drive.
And all I can do it try to be better than her...and I just end up being told I'm inconsiderate and fat and all those things. And the only consolidation is that "she didn't mean it". Well? That's ridiculous.