I've re-started my weight loss after maintaining for several months and now I have a weight loss buddy. She's new to town and we get along great. We also have about the same amount to lose to get to our goals.
Last night we were talking about our weights and food issues and whatnot and she mentioned how she's going to miss eating fast food for lunch every day and having all that full-fat ice cream in the evenings, but that's how she got to the weight she is so it's got to go. I just laughed and said "yeah". But here's where I feel kinda down...that's not how I got here. I didn't eat mounds of fast food or yummy snacks. I just had a portion control issue. I can't actually remember the last time I "pigged out" on junk food.
I guess what's bugging me is that here I am at the bottom of the hill working my way back up, but I didn't get to have the fun ride down. For some reason, mentally, it feels different to have gained weight eating whole grain pastas and fruits and veggies (in too large quantites, mind you) than to have been sitting around munching on potato chips and pizzas. I feel like I missed the fun.
I know this isn't totally rational. Obviously it doesn't matter how you gained the weight if you're going to try to lose it. And, I suppose it means I've already learned the right food habits, if not the right eating habits. But I can't help feeling like maybe I should have eaten that pint of Hagen Daas by myself or something because now I really can't.
Thanks for letting me vent!