Thank you both. I guess...my initial post was that first horrified reaction, basically. It jarred me, badly, to see those pictures. I'm not...ugly. I know that. It's just, I have this mental image of myself, and in it I'm the weight I used to be. I'm still seeing the thin person in my head, and it was a nasty shock to confront reality and be forced to realize that no, I'm not that thin person anymore.
I'm still not sure how I feel about that; if it's motivating or depressing. I'll have to give it some time. But, I just spent the past hour and some-odd playing DDR, and even though I'm still on the basic levels for everything (just got the game yesterday) it gets my heart going. So I'm glad I went that way instead of to the pantry.
Oh, and Karen...thanks for the perspective. Almost made me cry, but...heh. He doesn't really see the imperfections that I see. He just sees me
. And (for some unknown reason, although he'd be mad if he saw me saying that
) he does love me. So I'll just let it go at that, I guess.
Off for another few songs (which will probably turn into just one more, and one more, and one more, for the next half hour). Again...thank you.