For a long time, ever since I started dieting the first time, I had no interest in anything except dieting. When I failed my diet and gained all the weight back, I had no interest in anything but my failures. Then my boyfriend told me he liked me (before he was my boyfriend) and that cheered me up some.
It's been a long time and I'm back on my diet...and I'm trying to get into things that interest me...It's hard.
But all the time, ever since I moved to Florida when I was 11 (I'm now 16), it seems like everything is worse for me. I used to be happy, at least content in Virginia before I moved. But now everytime I turn around, at the end of the day I end up feeling pity for myself and crying all the time.
Whenever I feel rejected in my mind or someone isn't happy with me I go into my fantasies and no one cares about me in them. I have terrible self-esteem and low self-confidence. I thought I would be happy that I was back on my diet.
But it just seems that I have no emotions for anything at all. Sometimes someone will break through...but otherwise, nothing.
All I usually feel is sadness.
Is it hormones? Is it depression? I know I have abnormal anxiety...because if I'm not worried about dieting I have to find something else to worry about.