I KNOW what you mean about the emotional eating and the stress! FOR YEARS I let food be my de-stressor, and I got 100 extra pounds added to my frame to show how poorly food did to actually help me!
My suggestion to you is write yourself a letter RIGHT NOW! Tell yourself in the letter how you are feeling. Promise yourself that you will do wonderful things for yourself because YOU ARE WORTH IT!
Here are some bonuses you will get from weight loss:
1) Cuter clothes in smaller sizes
2) More energy
3) A healthier body
4) Pride in yourself
5) More confidence
6) Look younger
Be sure to add in your letter WHY this time you are going to lose the weight AND NEVER FIND IT AGAIN! That will be the most important part of the whole thing.
It sounds like you are mad enough to DO THIS THING! Getting fed up is a good thing! It gives you the power to really get going!
We are all here right with you on this, Sweettay!
You go, Girl!