Just go away!!
hehe, not referring to all the lovely women here, that is.... no, I'm talking about CRAVINGS. Sorry, this will be long but theraputic, for me... a big thank you for anyone who reads or has support!
See, one day when I somehow got it into my head to make a proper go of this healthier lifestyle, I managed to start it cold turkey.
This is an amazing thing for me. When I was 13-17, I would eat 250g of chips a day. EVERY DAY. Nobody in my family ever knew that I ate like that and would wash it down with some fast food or lollies. When I went overseas for a year, I fooled myself into thinking I was 'healthier', I had kicked the habit of binging! Wooo! Well actually, all I did was replace the chips and KFC with chocolate (how good Germany is for that!), pizza, pastries and cheesey toast. I think I had the mentality, "calories from food other than the food I love most (ie. chips) don't really count... it's progress..."
Since I moved back home, I got back into my old bad binging way of life, although I swore to myself that I will NEVER get back into eating chips again. Because seriously, I will not stop at one, or one packet, or three packets. And I know if I fall into that binge cycle again, I will never get out of it. So basically for the past few months, I went cold turkey on the chips and ate more fast food and chocolate...
Which brings me up to a few weeks ago, when I had the urge to go cold turkey on those and make steps towards a healthier lifestyle. For someone who had not exercised for the last 3 years and had not had ONE day without a junk food binge in the past FIVE years, this was really impressive! I told myself, "give it three weeks to make some better lifestyle changes. No fast food. No lollies, chocolate or chips. Low fat, moderate portions, count calories and exercise for a minimum of half an hour a day... you owe your body that much! Just try it!"
The problem is, as day 21 approaches... I don't feel massively different. Sure, I am proud of how it's gone, that I haven't slipped up once - especially since it was over the Christmas period! But I feel like I'm gearing up for a binge at the end. Sometimes all I can think about is chocolate or pizza. I just don't want to have that even in moderation because it won't be enough and I will binge and slip into my old ways. And it would probably be months of binging before I even thought about starting again.
So basically... I wanted to know if anyone else had any similar experiences? Especially anyone who went cold turkey with something, how long before you -really- stopped having cravings? How long before you seriously enjoyed all the healthy food that you swapped over to and liked that even more than your old vices?
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