I've had enough with this all. A year and a half of reasonably watching what I ate and excercising, and I lose a total amount of about 4.5 pounds.
Only to gain it ALL back in 5 days. 5 days?!
Okay, latley I've been excercising like a nut for the last couple of weeks, especially these last 5 days actually.
I admit, monday all I kept eating was this 400 g bag of chocolate covered almonds...sans the almond. I calculated that to about 4 chocolate bars. It didn't go above my daily caloric limitation but to make up for it, I went on my excercise bike for 2 hrs and a half and walked home from work which came up to 50 minutes.
I've also been sweating my butt off on the cardio machines every single day at the gym for an hour, watching what I ate in -again - a reasonable matter. I know my eating habits aren't the best, but I'm sure it's better than the average person (monday was er...an exception), not to mention, I excercise more than the AP as well. I try to have at least 5 servings of fruits and vegetables and protien at every meal.
I stepped on the scale this morning. The verdict? A total weight GAIN of five pounds. I'm 5'2. I'm now 146. I've been 146 for SO long, no matter what I do.
WHAT is wrong with me? And yes, I'm sure it's not water weight, because I've actually been having regular check ups with my scale only to see the numbers slowly climbing. I thought it was water weight too, but it hasn't been fluctuating back to my 'lighter' side latley.
And it's not muscle. I actually feel more bloated. My clothes aren't any looser. It's not the TOM.
I'm at the brink of giving up. I really am.
I'm getting a physical done in about a week. I was hoping it would be some medical dysfunction like hypothyrodisme or something that's making this quest for weightloss a complete obstacle. At least, I'd have something to blame.
And if all is well in this little plump body of mine...well...I've done all I can. There's nothing more I can do. I will either sulk, give up, continue doing what I'm doing right now (all in stupid vain), or consider a path towards some sort of eating disorder. I mean, I'm already on the way anyway, by the way I obssess about this.
Thanks for hearing-- or rather reading this awful rant.
I'm so frustrated...to the point where I just want to gorge on a whole pan of brownies...and we all know that is not going to help the situation at all...