Hello!
I know right now that no matter how much we tell you that you're not alone, you won't be convinced until you start to feel it from within.
Let me tell you my story. I was the ugly fat friend (not sure how many can relate) but I was that girl, that unnamed chubby/fat girl that the 'pretty girl' usually hung out with. I was invisible! People would look right through me. At the age when I should've been getting attention from boys, I only got inquiries about my 'pretty friend'.
One day my friends took me out to eat ice-cream and then - they had an intervention on how fat I was and how I needed to be healthy. Can you imagine how I was feeling? Sitting there eating a big bowl of ice cream, feeling ashamed and guilty.
But even then, that wasn't the moment that I 'put my foot down and decided to lose all the weight'. There was no single turning point for me where I stopped all junk and dropped all my weight. It was a gradual realization that I needed to make better food choices and needed to explore my own stamina and exercise.
And it took me AGES to have better body image. Even now when a lot of people compliment me on a daily basis (not just for my looks but for the woman I've grown to be) one comment on my weight will bring down my mood like nothing else matters. I'm working on it.
It will take a while for you to truly understand that you're not alone. But until then, make yourself your project. That you've to work on, tend to, improve and fine tune. Have you ever painted? You know how we want to always touch up on colours and strokes till you think your painting is perfect. You are your own masterpiece. Right now it's a blank canvas but start working on yourself and you will get there and then you'll smile back at this!