DKaren you just need something to push you off the edge of the pool!
Mine was being forced to get on scale prior to procedure and someone recording my weight ...there it was is black in white.. So I started to investigate my options then My guardian angel Ideal Protein coach showed me the possibilities .
Take a picture of yourself and really look at it ..is this where you want to be? If not change it.
I needed to something drastic and easy and IP was it for me plus have an awesome coach with great track record!
What happen in the past is the past ..take one step at a time and you"ll be amazed when you reboot the messages in your head!
You got this Girl Believe you can and just do it!
Good Luck Roo2