Happy Monday! It is brutally hot again in Chicago today. Looks like an inside day again for me. I am doing daycare this month, so I have 2 extra kids to care for - thankfully they are both pretty darned good and not rambunctuous. I wish we could go to the pool today, but the kids are 10, 7, 6, and 3. I think it's too much for me to care for by myself. So they are watching Tarzan and we'll do some crafts later on.
Well, I go to the doc tomorrow for my 33rd week appointment! It's so strange to be able to say that I will be having my baby in just 7 weeks. Of course, my DH's layoff gave us an unexpected thing to throw in the mix, and we had to cancel the painters. (and we will be doing it ourselves) The problem of course is the heat, and I am the one who usually paints the rooms. DH is ready to do it, but in reality, it is going to be a big project. Maybe we'll get on that next week...who knows? The good thing about babies is that they only really need the bare necessities. Clothes, food, and shelter. Bellybean is going to be in a bassinete for a while anyway, and in our room, since I will be nursing. I had hoped to have things in order, and help my nesting instinct to be somewhat satisfied, but it looks like I am going to have to let things fall where they may.
My FIL took our crib, so he could refinish some of the scratches that occured during the last 2 boys, and moving, etc. It is so sweet of him.
My only dilemma is that the bedding that I want is rather pricy and it is a special order that takes 4-8 weeks to deliver. I wouldn't have hesitated when Dh was working to go ahead and order it. But, I feel so awkward wanting something a little extravagent. The colors we picked for the nursery are linen white and hunter green. The border has a mix of color in it, but basically it is hunter green. I don't want to go out and buy something that doesn't match the theme of the border. (Like a Disney theme, etc) It'll look really silly. A friend of mine offered her bedding, which is white eyelet. And in reality, that will match. But in my heart, I just wanted to make this room special, since 1 I never had a nursery for my other 2, and 2 this is my last child. It is such a boring dilemma. In the end, everything always has a way of working out. And after hearing our homily at church yesterday, I can't help but think about how unnecessary these kinds of thoughts are--Okay, I am human, and I know that I am really blessed beyond my imagination.
Anyway, I am really happy, and have a sense of peace about these kinds of things, but I definitely struggle with the "desires" versus "needs" -- material kinds of issues.
There is so much more to life then that, isn't there?
Today on another board, a woman suffered from a miscarriage at 8 weeks. She was doing IVF, and had already had 1 other miscarriage. Obviously, her pain and grief are far worse than that of my silly dilemma. You know? It's really sad.
So, all I ask for today is for my continued good health, for the health of my husband and children, and the one growing inside me. Grateful to have such love in my life...
I pray for my DH to have a sense of peace and find a job where they will value and appreciate him. He worked so hard and gave up so much and they basically tossed him away as if his work there for the past 2 years was meaningless...you have to understand that he gave up having a life, and we suffered from his long hours (7:30 am - 11/12 midnight) for a year and a half. He thought that by working so hard, that he would have job security--and it was only an illusion...and I believe also a learning experience for the future. (If only the timing weren't so bad!) LOL
Either way, we have travelled down more dificult roads before, and this is only a new journey.
My wish for all of you reading this today is that you all have an abundance of love in your lives, good health, and peace of mind. Life is a gift.
Okay, I'll stop philosophizing now!
Blessings to everyone--lurkers and posters alike!
Scully and Bellybean