this group is for people who suffer anxiety disorders like general anxiety disorder, panic disorder, social anxiety disorders and all the others. suffering is hard enough, but its helpful to struggle w others that know what youre going through so if you have any of these issues please feel free to come and share w us and gain, help, support encouragement and understanding and oph yeah, venting too!
Well, I have had issues with my nerves since I was a child. Over the years, there have been P-L-E-N-T-Y of things that have made it worse (which I won't get into here because it would take YEARS) but I didn't start medication for the first time until 1999. My ex-husband and I were separated then and he was also serving a stint in Korea (he was Army) so I was very young (19), alone, devastated and scared in a brand new place (I am originally from Ohio). Zoloft was the first drug of my doctor's choice, along with Klonopin (sp?). This is when I started putting the weight on and being so obsessed with food.
I got to a point where I felt stronger, so I stopped taking the drugs and soon went into an emotional tailspin. The divorce was difficult and dragged on for 2 years, I had little money and no family nearby. SO - back to the doctor I go for more Zoloft. I was on and off different levels of it (I think I have blocked out much of that time) and the first time I started trying to date a new guy, I had what seemed like a heart-stopping, stomach cramping, nauseating, cold-sweating, WTF-is-this panic attack. And I had no idea what it was.
Several misdiagnoses later, I moved from Zoloft to Buspar. I also got into trouble with my doctor because without doing my homework on Buspar, I went and had a few cocktails near my house (playing it safe - yeah right, I know better now) and ended up getting Alcohol Intoxication thanks to the reaction of the pills and liquor.
Talk about a VERY humbling experience......
She gave me a BIG lecture and threatened to stop seeing me, so after I promised that I would not be that stupid again (which I haven't), she added Lexapro to my regimen. I am now taking the lowest dose of both Lexapro and Buspar (1 pill a day of each) and have been attack-free for about 2 years.
I still have my moments of stress - being a redhead doesn't help - but it hasn't been nearly as bad as it used to be. Of course, I've been getting fat as I've gotten happier, so go figure!!!!
Anyone else care to share their stories or can relate to mine?
I'm 22, and really started having issues about 4 years ago. I didn't know what was going on, but I couldn't quite catch my breath and I felt really edgy. It wasn't that bad, so I didn't tell anyone anything. Three days later and it started getting worse. I was scared, and told a few friends and then my mom. I didn't let on how bad it was getting. I was unable to speak a complete sentense, and then my friend noticed. They took me to the hospital thinking I was having some kind of asthma attack. By the time I got there and settled down I felt pretty good again, so of course the doctor didn't find anything.
That was the first place they told me I had a anxiety attack. I had a few others...each getting a little worse before i finally spoke with my doctor. It was there that they diagnosed me with Asthma induced anxiety attack. I am sure each anxiety attack is painful, but they determined that when I have an anxiety attack my lungs actually start to close up. It isn't very dangurous, because the worst that can happen is I'll get worked up and pass out from lack of oxygen. In that state I'm fine again though lol. I never thought that would happen, but that actually happened this past summer. It sucked!
I've been having real bad issues this year. Just childhood stuff I don't want to get too much into now. Part of it is I had learning disorders that really screwed everything up for awhile, and is of course still making it really difficult for today.
Ok, so thta is enough for now. I need to start getting ready!
hows your anxiety today ladies? mines ok but ive given up on braces....i cant get them on unassisted and theres no one here much of the time. plus i cant get pants on over them easily and they dont fit well over pants plus i cant ambulate w them w/o crutch assistance so no way!
diva:thats so horrible!! my 1st 1 felt like a heart attack too. i was in a car accident and was almost nearly 'harmed' by a not so nice person and now by biggest triggers are drs, medical settings, and loud noises.
well a little about me. i think i have always had anxiety issues. it's affected huge chunks of my life. my love life, sports, socialising and just generally getting things down. i spend a lot of time worrying about things that will never happen!!!
i often lay awake for hours and when i do sleep i tend to have a lot of nightmares. in my dreams i am so busy that when i wake up i feel exhausted
my original diagnosis was depression. then they decided bipolar but since then they have recognised that anxiety drives me and has a huge affect on me. i take pills for anxiety and depression which help take some of the edge off but by names stop the depression or anxiety.
for me the anxiety is constant feelings of agitation. i startle easy. i panic easy and get upset over small things. i have a low threshhold of frustration and noises upset me. a lot of the time i am so agitated and irritable that it's like my head is full of static and i can't think from all that is going on.
today has been a bad day. i have felt irritable grumpy and out of sorts for absolutely no reason. also pretty tired and sore eyes etc
today when i was out i picked up some fish oil caps to help with mood and my clicky joints. also an iron supplement to see if i can boost myself
i'm afraid when i am tired and low i reach for sugar. i know it is the wrong solution but in that moment the pain i am experiencing is so bad i am convinced that food or drink is the only thing that will make me feel better
i have depression and generalised anxiety disorder + a few other diagnoses as well hehe that i will keep to myself for now
the other thing is that i am often tense. i clench my teeth so much that i am always at the dentist getting them fixed. i broke 3 teeth last yr from clenching! i am currently doing weekly massages to try and deal with the physical tension. plus it's nice! and i have lots of hot baths to relax.
off for a walk now but i will come back and read everyone else's stories soon
i am really looking forward to being with other people who experience similar issues and sharing our stories. a lot of the time i find it hard to explain this to other people as they don't really understand!!!
hi sweet pea!
oh my gosh, most of what you said is me esp the startle thing, the noise thing and the tension! do you have tmj? i do. im sorry you felt so bad yesterday....i do hope today is better i love massage, but im at my witts end trying to find one thats appropriate for me!
morning adnrea. no to the TMJ altho my jaw does click a bit (not enough to be a problem)
yday i just wanted to scream there was so much noise around me. plus a month ago i moved from the country to the city so i am still adjusting to all the extra sounds. not sure how long i will last LOL. i like being convenient to things but i need my peace and quiet too!!!
this morning i don't feel quite so irritable but i haven't been up long. the clonazepam knocks me out. dogs woke me at 3am when some ppl were outside so i let them out. didn't wake again until 10 and there was a humungous dump in the lounge. looks like 2 dogs worth. and of course it wasn't a nice dry one. it left skid marks on the carpet so wasn't a great start to the day LOL
i get a shiatsu massage as it is gentle. i've had firm ones and been in agony for days after as i carry so much pain and tension in my muscles. was not a happy camper. this lady is japanese and i like her. i guess you just have to tell people what you want and like. andrea what sort of massage do you think would be appropriate for you?
clonazepam = klonopin or Rivotril i think. It helps with anxiety but has a heavily sedating effect so it helps me sleep.
In a perfect world I would like not to take drugs. Has anyone tried a super healthy diet for anxiety and found it helpful? theoretically exercise and diet should help anxiety but i haven't stuck at it long enough in recent years to put it to the test LOL
haha just read your post Diva talk about similar experiences hehe. I lost a job because I had prozac + wine and didn't know that it potentiated the effect. so it was like i had 3-10x the amount of alcohol and I went crazy. Did all sorts of unforgivable things, got in a fight, propositioned my staff and told them they had to sleep with me. oh the power of it all!!!
interesting about weight gain. i wonder if the clonazepam - klonopin affects my weight? i definitely think citalopram/celexa does. the biggest gain came tho when i was on antipsychotics for my nightmares
i haven't heard of flexeril. i will look it up. ok looked it up and it says it's a muscle relaxant??? that sounds good i should ask my doc about that. i am seeing her on friday and want to reevaluate my meds. they just aren't working
do you like the deep tissue massage? i find it is too much for me. it hurts too much as i have so much tension and pain.
do you have fibromyalgia? it sounds like it with the meds but i am just guessing lol
i know someone with primary depression but also anxiety and she radically increased exercise and ate only super healthy foods. lots of smoothies vege juice raw fruit and veges and all organic. cut out sugar coffee etc etc. she said it helped her a lot.
several of the books i have read say that anxiety is an adrenal issue and that sugar aggravates it so eliminating sugar is supposed to help with symptoms.
i have also used CBT to change my thinking. i went to millions (ok about 8 therapists) of various kinds that were no help but through my reading and learning i started teaching myself to think differently and to stop catastrophising. it helps. certainly doesn't get rid of it. but it's part of the puzzle