Hi! I'm new here obviously! And I would like to start a group for new people that are trying to get started on the weight loss wagon.
Soooo, it's late and I need to go to sleep, but I wanted to get this rolling!
Here's my story: I recently weighed in at 242lbs. I started this year at about 220, my goal was to lose weight this year, I thought by summer I would definitely be down in the 180s-190s. But I gained 22lbs instead of losing it. How did I do this to myself??? Well, I know how, but why? Oh I am just tired of wishing I was losing weight and not actually doing anything about it. I'm tired of saying I am going to eat healthy today then by lunch running through a drive thru!
Actually the other day I did really well, then I was on my way home from boyfriends house late at night and thought, hey I ate well today, I deserve a cheesburger and french fries! So I went to MCD's
(the enemy) and guess what! My car died at the order menu! It was pretty ridiculous, I didn't even need to go there, I should have just gone home and gone to bed! It didn't even sputter out, it just shut off. And the battery would not come back on. So I had to have an employee help push my car into a parking spot and then I had to call my boyfriend (thank God I have a cell phone) and tell him I needed him to help me at MCD's. I was so embarrassed and ashamed and felt sooo stupid! I was like why the
did this happen to me! That is the last time I think I will go to
for a long time! I felt like God was telling me "STOP! Don't put that food into your mouth! It's unhealthy, It's making you fatter, It's clogging your arteries, It's hurting your heart, your health, your life!" I seriously am a fast food junkie, I crave it, but since then it makes me feel sick or actually it makes me feel like when you go out drinking and act really dumb then the next time you think about it you're like "god, why did I even do that" and you don't ever want to go back to the same place ever again! That's how I feel, so maybe that's a good thing! I will definitely lose some weight if I stop eating fast food!
So, here I am beginning my weight loss journey and hoping other new "losers" will share some of their road blocks to just getting started. I know I wouldn't be able to talk about some of my problems with any of my friends or even my boyfriend, I just feel too ashamed. I know I should just suck up my pride, but I think if I can start openingly and truthfully talking about how I'm preventing myself from getting healthier on this board, eventually I'll be able to be more open with the people around me.
Sometimes there are things you don't want to admit to even the closest people to you, I have that problem when it comes to my weight. My boyfriend is such a sweetheart. The last two years or so he's been lifting weights, I guess you would call it body building, he has never been overweight, so his goal has been to gain muscle mass. He probably started out at about 150 and now he's at about 195 (pure muscle
) . And the other day we were sitting outside and I was about to sit in a plastic patio chair, and I was like "oh god I hope I don't break it!" He said, "Oh, I weigh close to 200lbs and I sat on it and I didn't break it, I weigh more than you do!" I was actually shocked! I told my mom the poor guy is blinded by love!
I haven't ever told him how much I weigh right now, and I just don't want too. Anyways now that he's gaining hopefully I can lose some weight and by Christmas I'll weigh less then him finally! We've been together for 8 1/2yrs. Since I was 15, I weighed 135-138 back then and thought I was fat. I would love someday to get back to that weight, but to be toned, and strong and healthy.
So anyway I know I talk alot and that's a long post to read so anyone who got through it thanx! and
So anyother June Newbies feel free to post your stories too! Anyone is welcome too!
I know this might seem like a rehash to some people, so that why I was thinking, hopefully we can get a lil' group of new newbies! Off to Wonderland