Changing old habits is hard.
Well, the fog is lifting a bit. I still do not feel right emotionally. But, things are getting a bit easier. Each day, getting up and doing what I need to is feeling like less of a tough effort. I still need to do some reflecting. Figure out what is wrong, and how to make things right. Or get a therapist - who knows? I also need to deicde what to do about TOPS - they still want me to come back.
Right now, I am just glad for any signs of light ahead.
Have a good weekend.
If the mind can perceive it then the body can achieve it.