Do you ever feel like it's not worth it to lose weight? Sometimes I hate the attention (I already put up some posts about that) And it's even beyond the
"romantic" attention but in general, society's treatment of thinner vs fatter people (and maybe it's stronger for women, I'm not sure, maybe it's not so bad for men)
but I feel like I am reaching some kind of "tipping point" (has anyone read that book?) with my weight loss where suddenly EVERYONE is treating me differently. I get more respect, people make more eye contact, people talk to me more... Shop clerks are more likely to talk to me...
I just don't want men to see me being "prettier" or something and take advantage of that. I want to be able to go out and walk around looking sexy and nice and feel confident.
And I want to be able to deal with the way people treat slimmer people differently.
But most of all I want to learn how to build boundaries against male attention without having to gain weight!!! I don't want to have to have a "wall of fat" to keep men I don't like from paying attention to me!!!
I want to be able to use my words. (or I guess if need be my fists or kicks but hopefully not!!!)
anyways I want to have a healthy body and be proud and feel safe in it, and not feel like I have to disguise it with fat so that I feel safe from men's attention.
I always felt like the usa was so progressive and forward and we had great womens rights etc etc but now that I am slimmer I am starting to feel like men don't always treat women that great. I don't know, maybe I am obsessing over nothing...
i guess i just hope I can maintain my weight loss and "adjust" to these new situations and built mental pathways for how to respond. healthy emotional responses.