I am very new to this, I just joined today and this is my first post. All to know about me is that I am 21 years old, 232lbs, I had my son Dec 20th 2010. I also have a fiance of three years, that gives me what I want when I want, sounds good but its not because 95% of the time I always want food and sodas.
I feel very disgusted with myself and very unattractive. I have never been as big as what I am now! In my 3rd trimester I was smaller than what I am now. I do not like to be naked around my fiance, I hate for him to see my stomach, EVER! My stomach is the WORST part of my body. I have this spare tire thing under my belly button and it is so disgusting. I am in a size 20 pants 2 or 3X shirt. I have to get away from the large numbers.
I want to start today with no soda, or breads, or (my weakness) sweets. I want to start taking the alli pills and only take in 2300 calories or less daily. I also want to start excercising with the P90X videos. Lots of people say I may not be able to do it, but I have and want to stick with it. Honestly, I have no support thats why I have come here.